In January 2016 my life made a dramatic change. First I went to Ojai, California for an amazing experience with the Hendricks Institute, working towards my certification as a life coach. Much of what we worked on was body intelligence, I felt like I had just opened up what I had been holding on for so long. Much of this being critical of myself in many aspects of my life. That being said I made choices that kept me from thriving, living in a fear based mindset. This fear kept me in a tailspin of disordered eating that has come and gone since 2004. Food became my enemy and exercise would combat all those dreaded "calories" I had consumed or didn't. It took me many years to get past that it truly wasn't about the food. Up until the last 2-3 years I truly didn't understand myself. I was just living passively and for me it wasn't working anymore. At this point I decided to make a shift. I joined the Institute of Integrative Nutrition and a year later was a Certified Holistic Health Coach. The biggest take away throughout the course work was self-care. I missed that boat many days. I lived to prove things, I lived to do as much as I could, I lived on the go constantly and didn't know any other way. I did little things here and there for self-care such as a pedicure or a massage but deep down I wasn't being present, I didn't want to just "be." Again living in fear and lets just go with judgement because there was always that worry of what others thought of me. This had taken a toll on my physical as well as emotional body. I was living in disappointment in what I had done to my body. Living in a "to me" mindset, through all that I have gone through, my family and friends were always supportive, but until I decided to make a change in my daily choices my life was going to present with the same story. As I have come to learn, what you put into the universe the universe will bring to you. This round, things were a little different and I was truly ready to make my life better at so many levels.
So what came across my computer screen was definitely a game changer. I was invited by a fellow IIN graduate and health coach, Shannon Boyle to like her business page "Naturally Inspired." She was promoting a cleanse that seemed to look incredibly successful for her clients. I inquired about the program because, for me I had always been skeptical on doing anything that I perceived as possibly drastic, especially with my history of an all or none lifestyle. This time, though, it "felt" different. After talking with Shannon, I realized this connection was meant to be!! I had so much confidence in myself, saying yes to something without hesitance. So here I was, deciding to go on the journey of a raw food cleanse (7 days) along with a restoring/rebuilding period (4 weeks). Scared, maybe a little, but for the first time I was making a choice and a change for myself and no one else. The cleanse was only 7 days and I thought this wouldn't be that hard and you know when it came down to it, it really wasn't. My outcomes were nothing short of one of the biggest transitions I had made since marrying my husband!! I lost 7 pounds of what was mostly bloat and inflammation in my gut, banished my cravings for sugar and processed food while also improving my sleep and for the first time in a long time had CLARITY!!! Clarity in my everyday activities, at home, at work with my friends and family. I was in such an amazing place that I didn't fear that the next phase might not go well once I was out of, dare I say, a controlled environment.
Today was my last day of the restoring/rebuilding phase. This has been a time of exploration and learning. Was I eating out of hunger or emotions? Was I judging what was on my plate? Did I take the time to taste the food instead of rushing through to get past something or to get something else done? How did my body truly feel after I ate something? It was nice to just be, without the worry that had once consumed so much of me. My cravings aren't shouting for all my attention anymore. Were there times that I was wanting food when I wasn't hungry, yes, and I honored it without judgement. When I did test the waters of processed food, such as bread or diet soda my body gave me very clear signals and for once I didn't override them. I have finally given my body what it needed NUTRIENTS!! No denying my body has been living with a sense of ease over these last few weeks. Something it has been missing for so long.
Overall I have come to live in appreciation of who I am and what I bring to this world. I can't wait to continue this journey, being present and open to receive what this world has in store for me!!
In Health & Happiness
PS: Picture is a before and after the cleanse. Most of it was in my stomach, the bloat and inflammation has gone down tremendously!!